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Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
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Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
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Sunday, December 17th, 2006
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I havent been here is a while. I dont know why but i might start.
Reality slaps come in the strangest ways. I had the biggest one last night. We went out and was having a great time, the ex was there which made things a bit akkward but i got my groove on and still tried to have a good time.
The dude i occasionally hook up with was there too and we did hook up but around the other side of the stage away from everyone i knew there. As the night went on i overhead the ex say how some little chick had been checking him out and vice versa. They were dancing together and making googly eyes at each other all night. So, pashing friend had left and i wanted to go because all this stuff in front of me was starting to make me feel like shit. Em and i left and as soon as we did i burst into tears and told her how ive felt the last two weeks. All of it, i told her everything.
Then a while later i was hugging her and i look up to see the ex and little chick walking away from the club holding hands. I fucking lost my shit i didnt know what to do.
I know it all sounds contradictory but thing is...the ex doesnt care what i do. He doesnt care who i hook up with or anything. He still knows that i care and i really do. I cant stop it from happening but i would prefer not to see it, ya know? Outta sight, Outta mind.
So, this morning i deleated my myspace account, blocked the whole page, tore up the photos i had in my wallet and gave everything of his back to em to give to him. I hate him so much. I hate what he's done to me. He's broken me but he's a pathetic little boy whos scared of the world. I found out the little chick has only just turned 18 and was fucked off her nut.All he can pull is an 18 year old drunken slag who initiated it in the first place, what a pathetic fucking shit.
I hate him and im glad its over. I know i still have a long way to go but fuck...i know im on the right path now.
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Hey guys, Im not one for this type of stuff but read it, pass it on and see what we can do to help.
According to the Iranian daily Etemaad, then 17-year-old Nazanin and her niece had been spending some time in a park west of Tehran with their boyfriends, when three men started harassing them.
The girls` boyfriends fled from the scene, leaving them helpless behind. The men pushed Nazanin and her niece down on the ground and tried to rape them, and to protect herself, she took out a knife from her pocket and stabbed one of the men in the hand.
The girls tried to escape, but the men overtook them, and at this point, Nazanin stabbed one of the other men in the chest, which eventually killed him. According to the newspaper, she broke down in tears when she told the court: "I wanted to defend myself and my niece. I did not want to kill that boy. At the heat of the moment I did not know what to do because no one came to our help." Nevertheless, the court sentenced her to death by hanging.
This isnt a joke or anything like that, its a real newspaper clipping.
Here's the website, http://www.supportnazanin.org/
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Its funny at times when you think things are rolling along really smoothly and then you realise that something not quite right.
I had no idea what to write about but i thought i would just tell you all about my day. I started off with a great day. I had to get up at 5am to start work at 6 but then only worked 4 hours and finished at 10. So i chilled at home for a while and then went and met my mate (Jade Craven) in the city. We lunched it, wandered around and i actually bought the Benrik diary, hurrah. Then since it was late afternoon i headed home to relax whilst playing a little sims and chillin again.
And thats where i originally ended this entry except that i just recieved a call from my mum. In 2001, she had a stroke/head injury. It damaged her optical nerve and she's half blind in both eyes. Alot of other things happened but all of which she got over. However, as of late ive noticed that she seems to be getting worse. At one stage she was driving everywhere and working lots and always looked nice. Now, she lost her job (nothing to do with the head injury), shes having car accidents and forgeting things, lots of confusion and depression. She always looks drab and never dresses up anymore. She rang me just then to ask me to go over because she hit someone in her car. Not someone elses car but an actual person. Luckily she was only going 5kms but still, she might not have been. Last week i was watching her reverse her car and she was about 2 seconds away from hitting someone because she didnt see them.
I think she needs to get some more tests done. Just to make sure everything is alright. Im just really fucking scared, i dont want to go through all that again. It was fucked to start with, not again.
So now, im sitting here typing this, wishing i could be all jovial and happy since im going through a mini brain fuckup and this is the first time in a while ive been actually happy and then this wonderful little thought pops in my brain. yay.
Sorry if i bought a downer to anyones day. I just needed to verbalise this, i have 4 journals and im posting it to all of them. I just want to get this out before it hurts my head anymore.
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Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
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Last week was RYLA week once again except this time, im a director. I experienced all the same things as last time, sleep deprivation, excellent food, great friendships, warm fuzzies, chocolate, fart and bum jokes and a catch phrase that will stay with us for a while. "YOU know, Balls?"
I met so many wonderful people and i wish i could have my fellow directors again to tell me im not being stupid and no, i dont smell bad. But that top does not go with that skirt. It was an amazing experience to be a director this time and although i didnt feel a tight bond with the awardees i did make a tight bond with my fellow directors, most of which i knew already (1 being my best friend and another being my boyfriend, one i used to work with and the other three i knew really well but not on the same level i do now)
Im filled with so much enthusiasm to get things right in my life. Both in work and personal things. Friends, family and my wonderful fella. I could not hope for anything better. Im such a lucky person to be able to have them and not regret losing what i have.
Did you think that i would get all this from one week of being with strangers? I seriously think that anyone who wants this should go. Should experience this feeling of...i really cant explain it. But you all should, dont be afraid and just go for it. It wont let you down. It'll be on again next year for all those people living in adelaide, i will be there but i can work around that. :) I just wont talk to you. ;)
Oh and today, i went to bunnings and bought two plants for my room. A lucky bamboo and a nice leafy birdsnest. So, im tidying my room and packing all my ryla stuff away and going to make it all homely.
Rock on people.
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Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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Taken a picture naked? Yessum
Made out with a member of the same sex? Yessum
Danced in front of your mirror? Yessum
Told a lie? Yessum
Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yessum
Been in a fist fight? Yessum
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yessum
Been arrested? Actually...no.
Left your house without telling your parents? No, i have good parents
Ditched school to do something more fun? Yessum
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yessum
Seen someone die? Nope.
Slept in until 3? Yessum
Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Whilst very very stoned, yes.
Played dress up? Yessum
Fallen asleep at work/school? Yessum
Felt an earthquake? No
Touched a snake? Yessum
Ran a red light? Yessum
Had detention? Definatly
Been in a car accident? Yessum
Pole danced? YES!!!
Run over an animal? No, thank christ
Been lost? Yessum
Sang karaoke? Yes!
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yeah
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yeah
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes!!
Kissed in the rain? No, not yet
Sang in the shower? All the time
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? No...but its something that could happen
Ever gone to school partially naked? No..
Sat on a roof top? Yes
Played chicken? Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Pushed or jumped?
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes!
Broken a bone? Nope
Mooned/flashed someone? Yeah...
Forgotten someone's name? Everydamn day
Slept naked? Sometimes
Blacked out from drinking? Yeas..
Played a prank on someone? Yeah...
Felt like killing someone? Not felt...dreamed when extreamly pissed off
Made a parent cry? Yes
Cried over someone? Definatly
Abseiled/Rappelled? Slightly...but i panicked and bumped into the rock
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? I cant quite remember
With the same person? Well, it would have been...
With different people? Nope.
Had/Have a dog? No..:( I want one!
Been in a band? Several imaginary bands
Drank 25 sodas in a day? I maybe just could have!
Shot a gun? No ;(
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Cardijn College
a mother and father decided they needed a
break,so they wanted to head out for a night on the town.So
they called their most trusted babysitter.When the babysitter
arrived,the two children were already fast asleep in bed.So the
babysitter just got to sit around and make sure everything was
okay with the children.Later at night,the babysitter got bored
and went to watch tv but she couldn't watch it downstairs
because they didnt have cable downstairs (the parents didn't
want the children watching too much garbage).So she called
them and asked them if she could watch cable in the parents'
room.Of course the parents said it was ok,but the babysitter had
one final request.She asked if she could cover up the clown
satue in their bedroom with a blanket or cloth,because it made
her nervous.The phoneline was silent for a moment,(and the
father who was talking to the babysitter at the time)said....take
the children and get out of the house....we'll call the police...we
don't have a clown statue...the children and the babysitter got
murdered by the clown.It turned out to be that the clown was a
killer that escaped from jail.If u don't repost this within 5 minutes
the clown will be standing next to your bed at 3:00 am with a
knife in his hand
repost this with your schools name
P.S. 3 a.m. is said by preists to be the hour of the devil
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Hey!
I hope someone can help me, i deleted The Sims original off my computer before i went overseas b-9 months ago and i just went to install it again because, ya know..its what nerds do, and its come up with the following:
16 bit Windows Subsystem
C:WINDOWSSYSTEM32AUTOEXEC.NT. The system file is not suitable for running MS-DOS and Microsoft Windows applications. Choos close to terminate the application.
So...like, what the fudge does all that mean? Anyone out there got any suggestions? I'll give a cookie and a kiss to whoever can help! We'll be buddies for ever!
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| Who Should Paint You: Roy Lichtenstein | 
Larger than life, your personality overshadows everyone in the room
A painter would tend to portray you with a bit of added flair! |
| You Are 88% Open Minded | 
You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!
Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.
You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.
You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself. |
| Your Stripper Song Is | 
Closer by Nine Inch Nails
"You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no
Soul to tell"
When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy. |
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Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
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Okay, so heres my rough life plan:
This year: * Start work next week, pay off debts
* Be a leader at RYLA in three weeks (am shitting self but oh so excited at the same time)
* Keep the brand new me.
* Socalise alot more
Next year: * If all debts payed off, start Fashion Design at TAFE.
* Socalise alot more with friends
* Work and save for traveling
* Be a RYLA director again
2008: * Travel again - New Zealand or America/Canada, UK.
* If enjoying it, do second year of Fashion at TAFE.
Right so thats the basic life plan! Not bad eh!
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Hey everyone,
Guess what? Im coming home today!!!!!!! Hurrah!!!!
Ummmm, yeah...thats about it.
I rule!
Love and Kisses
Bon.
XX00
P.S Nick says hi.
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Thursday, March 9th, 2006
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Placebo's new cd!! 13th march!! Hell yeah!!
Except i cant buy it till i get home because im pretty broke. hehehehe.
Ah wells,
But this also means...THEY COULD BE AT THE BDO NEXT YEAR!!! WOOOOHOOOo!!
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Im so hungover and tired man. Cheap beer is the devil.
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Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
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Ola!
Okay, so at the moment im in Barcelona. Sorry i havent checked in in a while but im sure you guys werent that worried anyways! :) The hostel im staying at the moment is pretty damn sweet! Its really buzzing and they have a bar where you can get two for one in happy hour and one litre beers for €3!!! Thats great!!!
I just got in yesterday, nick and i had to make our own ways to barcelona as i had to write off my flight because i couldnt change the dates and he was flying into madrid. So i took a ferry from rome which only cost me €39 except it took 20 1/2 hours. Wow, that was long even though i slept for the majority of the time. Nick took a nightbus to get here and was here when i got arrived which was really lovely. Because the whole time on the ferry i had old italian men smiling at me and looking at me syaing "Ciao Bella!!" and it was creepy and gross.
Anyways, thats all over. 22 days until we get home, im so excited! Anyone who wants to meet us at the airport when we do arrive home that would be awesome! But i can understand if you dont, apparently we´ll be flying into the new terminal aswell! I´ll post thedetails of the flight when i get a chance, just in case.
So, i cant remember what ive posted about where ive been so far. But since leaving the Uk, ive been
Ireland for 8 days
Scotland 8 days
Prauge 4 days
Paris 3 days
Helsinki 2 days
Italy 16 days
Spain..only one day so far.
Paris was fucking awesome, i loved it. It was dirty but it was so fucking awesome! I cant wait to go back!
Annyways, i had better go and shower and i really need the loo because we need to get out and see this crazy city!!
Peace out guys, email me bitches!!
Love Bon.
XX00
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Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
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Four Jobs ive had in my life
*JB HiFi - Sales Assistant
*BookCity - Shop Floor Manager
*Angus and Robertson Bookstore - Sales Assistant
*Gamestation - Sales Assistant
Four movies you could watch over and over:
* Drop Dead Gorgeous
* Hedwig and the Angry Inch
* Pirates of the Carribean
* LOTR
Four places you have lived:
Adelaide, South Australia (my home town)
Clapham, London
Brighton, Britain
and thats all...
Four TV shows you love to watch:
The Simpsons
Family Guy
Red Dwarf
Friends
Four places you have been on vacation
Ireland
Scotland
Britain
Melbourne Australia
Four websites you visit daily
Suicidegirls.com
hotmail.com
thats about it...
Four places you'd rather be right now
Back in brighton
At home with my family and friends
getting ready for the BDO
Other than that, im happy right here!
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Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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Well, ive officially experienced the coldest day ever. Am in Glasgow and yesterday it was so so so so so so so cold that i was getting frost on my scarf because i was breathing on it. I couldnt have a cigarette outside because i cant smoke with mittens (i have tried, its just to damn hard) and its too damn cold without mittens or anything which sucked balls.
We just got to this new hostel tonight and its been so awesome, spent the last two in the most boring hostel on earth, no common room, no tv and only one computer which was down most of the time. So we moved to another one around the corner and its awesome! Two canadian chicks look after recpetion and they are so cool and so funny and were getting along fabulously. We ran out of cigarettes so we swapped this chick a doughnut for two and she was so excited about this doughtnut that she gave us another two. Nice much!
So now im talking in a canadian accent and its really awesome. I just wish i had some beer because beer is great.
So what did all you bastards do in the heat on australia day? Chill out listening to the hottest 100 and drinkunder the shade fanning yourselves with something i imagine? Yeah, well we tried to get in to walkabout bar but would have had to que for like 5 hours to get in. The walkabout is not that good.
wells, write to me and send me hugs and stuff. Miss you all...laters!
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Monday, January 16th, 2006
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Well, this is my last post before i begin my 2 months of straight travelling. Its so exciting!
Saw a bit of london in the few days we were here, went to the london dungeon (didnt get any photos because im a slack cow) but did get a few of tower bridge and the thames and all that. It was a really lovely few days out. Went to Stonehenge yesterday which was simply amazing, ever since i was little i wanted to see it and now i have, it was wonderful!
Check out my photobucket site for all my photos! http://photobucket.com/albums/b179/BonnieBlu
Thankyou to everyone who left a message on the dvd emily sent us! It was so lovely to see you all very drunk like normal! :)
Rock on peoples and be safe!
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Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
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